Sunday, March 26, 2017

"Hot New Release" #2

https://www.amazon.com/gp/new-releases/books/11373/ref=zg_bs_tab_t_bsnr


Friday, March 24, 2017

This book is now available as a Kindle download for $0.99 and free with purchase of the soft copy

Amazon Kindle Version:

https://www.amazon.com/dp/B06XTMT74H/ref=sr_1_1?s=digital-text&ie=UTF8&qid=1490372524&sr=1-1&keywords=i+married+a+sociopath

Thursday, March 23, 2017

"From the Author" in my Book

From the Author:
I started blogging in February of 2012. I made a decision to take my journaling on-line, making my story available to others, but under the protection of an alias.  Portions of this book come from “stand alone” posts from my blog. They may appear out of place amidst my story line, but I feel like the message within them is important enough to leave them as is. Posts at various time periods reveal my thoughts and feelings at that time, which may or may not be where or who I am today. By capturing emotions in “real time” I hope others can better relate to surviving the same sort of adversities. The events that I’ve chosen to document in this book are the ones that have been the most painful and/or had the greatest effect on me. Some events may seem trivial in comparison to others, but will come to fruition in book two and three—the seeds were planted within the timeline of this book.


The process from blog to book, under my real identity, has been agonizingly difficult—an unexpected internal struggle. It has taken five years to not only write my book, but to find the courage to uncover and claim myself. Fear has gotten in the way of so much and fear has kept me imprisoned. My transformation to living freely is manifesting, in part, with the publication of my story. 

It's Available on Amazon

https://www.amazon.com/s/ref=nb_sb_noss?url=search-alias%3Daps&field-keywords=i++married+a+sociopath

Wednesday, March 22, 2017

Book Launch....tomorrow?

I have uploaded the book on Create Space. I believe I can go live at about midnight tonight pending approval. It will be available at the Create Space store (and I encourage you to buy at that location), it will also be available through Amazon and as an e-book download to Kindle.

Sunday, March 19, 2017

I am Sabrina Brown and I Married a Sociopath.



I had hoped to launch my book tomorrow morning--on the spring equinox--because tomorrow the day and night are exactly equal. I believe this book will balance the scales of justice--things will become equal for me and for others.

I am finally ready to claim myself, and my story, and in doing so take back my power. My abusers no longer get to decide what parts of me they will exploit, and out of context. This is my story and in my own words. This is the good, the bad, the ugly and the darkest moments in my life. 

The book is getting a final edit and then I will upload it to my account and it will be available to you both as a hard copy version and electronic download. I will continue to update here on my blog. It should be out within the next few days.....

Saturday, March 4, 2017

From Blog to Book: I had no idea it would be THIS hard

When I dared to start this blog and posted for the first time--to turn my inward suffering outward--it was a liberating and validating experience. It was scary, don't get me wrong, and at first I feared being found out and sued by the parties I was writing about, but overall it helped me and I hope others.

Blogging is my on-line journal and at times I rant and rave and...generally get positive feedback immediately. The more vulnerable the post--the more the feedback. Writing a book is entirely different, though it's still me and still my life. 

When I compose a blog post it's one idea and/or one event. I focus on that, feeling any feelings in that moment, and try to express it in words the best I can. The book is my entire story, at that time, so it's everything at once. There are no more compartments in time--just one continual narrative.  I have, for months now, immersed myself in my own trauma and continually. I work, then come home and write and edit until I can't keep my eyes open (last weekend I worked about 32 hours on this book alone), fall asleep thinking about it wondering if I've misspoken or left an important piece out, gotten the timeline wrong, I have nightmares about traumatic events, then wake thinking about events and trauma...

I am feeling like I did with Peter most of the time, so I don't feel good. I've in some ways lost my newfound "happy." Some times I wake up thinking Peter is lying next to me and not Jason and I find myself in a full on panic attack. I have dreams that somehow Peter has taken me away from Jason and I'm with him again. I have trouble throughout the day thinking I'm still married to Peter; sometimes almost calling Jason Peter. And my daughters....a newfound grief is bubbling under the surface. I've been going through photo albums for the photo insert and remembering the happy, the sad and the abuse....the feelings so intense I am nearly always on the brink of tears. 

As I read through a section the other day, reading about events back to back and seeing a very prominent pattern emerge, I cried, I cried for me. For me as a little girl, for me as a young women doing the best she could, being slapped down figuratively and literally, only to pop back up and be slammed down again. I grieved for a lot of overall loss in my life. Just unnecessary loss and heartbreak.

All of this without feedback as with the blog. I go from feeling confident about my expression in book form to the next minute insecure that the book will fail--the suffering and soon to be exposure in vain.

On top of the emotional exhaustion of this project, it is just very rigorous writing a book. It is hard. It is hard work. 

None the less, it is coming out. I am coming out. I will expose myself out here first with my real identity... very soon. I'm taking one step at a time and seeing how it feels...